Grace

I am feeling better today...by God's grace.
Grace is the help we don't deserve but God freely gives.
God doesn't show you the bad someone else does, he shows you the bad you do...which is a bit agonising but eventually it is empowering, a counsellor once said to me, "If you change your reaction, you will get a different response." At the time I thought that was a pretty dumb thing to say to someone who was clearly in counselling because they couldn't change their reactions, and therefore were not getting a different response.
But I have to say it is true.
I feel like my confidence has been restored because I know now I've seen the truth, little by little and with God's grace I am going to be able to react differently...little by little until even the memory of it is gone...nothing is different today, no lightning bolts(I don't think), I haven't won the lottery...but I have got a lovely clean and harmonious house.
I don't deserve it... but I've got it.