God geek!

I have discovered how to download sermons on my phone and listen to them on the bus, in the staff room and at the shops...with my ear-phones in! Now I'm not an ear-phone generation...I'm a head-phone generation. But I'm going to big up the ear-phone for this usage for a number of reasons. The first being I preserve my cool and groovy image whilst secretly and silently remaining a God geek! Plus where as my journey and my breaks are too short to get stuck in with reading they are perfect for sermons.

So I don't know what I learnt specifically today...yet... but I do know what I avoided! !

It is very easy to get negative during your day...I specifically find the day Alfie goes to his dad very difficult... mainly because my top 5 thoughts on this day are usually

1. I hate you

2. I hope terrible things happen to you

3. You bastard!

4. You are pathetic and useless

5. Remember what you did to me....

And generally your thoughts will effect your mood, and after a day like that I'm usually what I describe as homicidal/suicidal...and very upset and confused.

Today what struck me was how many times my mind tried to have those thoughts but once plugged in how I left them..how I pondered other issues...how those sermons pulled my thoughts to other thoughts...how I sat on the bus and thought about what joyful meant? How I smiled at the thought of being overjoyed ...how I thought about you can't have the dark with the light.

Now I'm home and the verse that I can remember most was read at the candlelit service, 

Luke 2:19 But Mary treasured up all these things and pondered them in her heart.